the battle

you’re so cool...
she wrote
in the moment
when all hell broke loose
punctuated with little hearts
I wonder what it would be like?
... to have a love like that?
It happened fast,
but so true
laughter bright
kisses true
I battle the demon
not of my own
cold and strong
drowning
gasping
there is no reason
for his attack
only to destroy
weaken
have what he wants
he takes
and takes
until I don’t recognize
myself
barricaded in
dark rooms
vodka on my lips
I plan my escape
with the monster at the door
the hardest part
is there was
a sweet man there
before
now it’s come to one
chilling thought
him or me
and the weapons
are in
his arsenal