forever

I didn’t realize
I was sailing off course
there were plans
I navigated carefully
with focus and love
the sea responds harshly
unforgiving
beating my tiny boat
into splinters
leaving me clutching
at scraps of my pride
and shards of my heart
all efforts lost at sea
drowning in sadness
I wonder how
the thing I love so much
could handle me
with such cruelty
and absence of thought
forever was the destination
treading water
I said out loud
this isn’t what
forever is for

the sea does not answer